"There is no coming to consciousness without pain." - Carl Gustav Jung
A lot has happened since the beginning of 2018. Having an influx of emotions and logically sound reasons of who I want to be and want to have seems insane. The ongoing battle within me is overwhelming the mind and body, while the spirit hangs on to the light. However, embracing what appears broken and realizing that my "problems are answered prayers," I now know what I want. It's not about me. It's not about who I am now. It's not about what I want. Becoming someone who you want to be deals with death. Not physical death but the barriers and the persona you carry everyday must die. Realizing that the four walls around us keeps us bottled in and limits our reach. "Act from where you want to be not from where you are." Emergence has given me another pair of eyes and allowed me to question myself, "why not?"
So, as I embrace my brokenness everyday, "act from who I want to be not from how I feel," I can and I will make this year great and memorable than the last. Being motivated everyday to accomplish my long-term dream, 'owning a PORSCHE 911', and providing 'a yacht' to my parents, I will take whats mine and own my dying-self so I can emerge from the ashes as a new person and a new mind.