patience

A Season of patience

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Sitting, thinking, contemplating, all the intentional actions that may lead up to a decision seems simple. Yet, why do we question ourselves and rethink, replan, and redo what we intended to do? On a Tuesday morning while im writing this blog, I can’t help but have another phase of rethinking. Questioning myself why? Somehow and somewhere we ought to come to grips of the decisions we’ve made and actually live out those moments. As I take a sip of my coffee, I imagine my career to unfold within the next few mornings of my daily commute to work. I begin to imagine and fantasize of the financial freedom it may bring me. However, the emerging factors that may come is a process of sitting, thinking, and contemplating. A process, or better yet, a season of patience. For those who find themselves in a predicament of getting no results in their daily grind or personal life, just know that the season of patience is a good and powerful season. Just like the season of rejoicing and celebration. Having felt overjoyed to be done with college and having received a Bachelors of Arts in Business Marketing seems way too surreal. But the season of rejoice isn’t over. 

Doubt, fear, and everyday procrastination are all dream killers. They sneak up on you without notice and can shake you up and break you down. Do you ever dream of owning your dream house or achieving your dream job? Trying to pass an exam? DMV test? Beating your PR? Or even getting that promotion? Dreams are all possible; dreams comes in different forms and different ways, yet result in the same reward. 

It doesn’t matter where you were born or the life you lived. It doesn’t matter the conditions you are in or the status you are in with you finances. What matters the most is getting started. Taking steps everyday toward your goal is necessary. Stop the negative thinking, stop the excuses and laziness. Think about now and the life you want to have lived. Set aside the pride, excuses, and chase what you want. Don't live pay check to pay check. There has to be more than making money.

Some of the powerful tools I use everyday to stay in a constant motion of motivation, inspiration, and confidence is the tool of proclamation and intention. If you proclaim you're going to graduate college with honors, you will! If you proclaim that you are going to pass the board exam to be accepted to the masters program, you will! The power of proclamation and declaration is that it rewires your brain and your mindset to achieve and succeed your goals. So, in the season of sitting, thinking, and contemplation, the season of patience is a necessary step and essential building block to one’s perseverance. 

Break through the barriers of doubt, fear, and the environment of negativity from those who discourage you. You can do this! Sitting, thinking, and contemplating is all it takes to get started and get ahead. Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and open your eyes to the reality of your dreams. 

Embrace what appears broken

 
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"There is no coming to consciousness without pain." - Carl Gustav Jung

A lot has happened since the beginning of 2018. Having an influx of emotions and logically sound reasons of who I want to be and want to have seems insane. The ongoing battle within me is overwhelming the mind and body, while the spirit hangs on to the light. However, embracing what appears broken and realizing that my "problems are answered prayers," I now know what I want. It's not about me. It's not about who I am now. It's not about what I want. Becoming someone who you want to be deals with death. Not physical death but the barriers and the persona you carry everyday must die. Realizing that the four walls around us keeps us bottled in and limits our reach. "Act from where you want to be not from where you are." Emergence has given me another pair of eyes and allowed me to question myself, "why not?" 

So, as I embrace my brokenness everyday, "act from who I want to be not from how I feel," I can and I will make this year great and memorable than the last. Being motivated everyday to accomplish my long-term dream, 'owning a PORSCHE 911', and providing 'a yacht' to my parents, I will take whats mine and own my dying-self so I can emerge from the ashes as a new person and a new mind.